Posted by: anniewilson | September 2, 2009

Choose the hypocrite!

In response to my previous post, I received this scolding by someone who enjoys having power over who gets health care but does not want his name used:

Anonymous said…
This might be funny, if you knew what you were talking about. Health care should be available to everyone, and there is a lot of misinformation being spread by republican’ts.

Aren’t you sucking off of the gov’t with your cancer care? Or are you blessed to have health care from one of your many many many ex husbands? Maybe we should take your care away from you, and see how you do. How would you feel then? Oh wait, you woulnd’t, because you’d be dead.

I don’t usually take the time to respond to self righteous morons but in case any one else thinks what this one thinks, I have to set the record straight.

I have NO insurance, no medical, no dental, no prescription, no eye care.

My doctor charges me $80 a visit and when I was beaten up by some nut last May, they wouldn’t let me in to see him even though, for once, I was not in their debt at that time. They told me to go to the emergency room. I said that it was stupid to go there and owe thousands of dollars when I could owe the doctor 80 bucks. They said, “The hospital has access to indigient care, we don’t.” So, I went home and stayed at home putting heat on my injuries because I didn’t know what else to do and I was ABSOLUTELY NOT about to take services away from indigent funds that should be spent on children. I currently need another 80 bucks to go to the doc to get refills on my heart med, blood pressure med, anti-seizure med. Although it’s not a very good idea, I can go without my Prozac and Xanax. Also, the doctor keeps telling me to get certain lab tests which I can’t afford so when I go back, he scolds me again. I feel guilty about not listening to him but I feel worse about having to tell him the truth, I just can’t afford it.

Last week I broke a very high profile tooth. I had no money to have it fixed so I traded my most prized possession (after my kids of course) to a dentist in exchange for a root canal and a tooth build up. He gave me a prescription for pain medicine but I only had 16 bucks and my animals needed food. So, instead of a narcotic after a root canal, I bought a bunch of Alpo and Aristocats Cat Food. That damn tooth still hasn’t stopped hurting and now the pain is in my jaw too. The dentist didn’t agree to anything else than what he already did. I don’t know what to do but for now, I have other problems that are more pressing. I’ll post a picture of my fridge for you. It’s embarrassing but not any more than taking food stamps from children and old people.

When I do have to pick up a prescription, I call Costco and Wal-mart because my pharmacy price matches and I can get them cheaper that way…but I still have to pay for my own medicine. Once again, it’s embarrassing to answer “No.” to the question, “Don’t you have any insurance?” But, even if I wanted to lie and say I did, I’d never get away with it because I couldn’t produce the necessary information.


Oh, and don’t let me forget my eyeglasses. I can’t see a damn thing without them but I stepped on them months ago and they’re broken beyond repair. One ear piece is still there so I wear two thirds of my glasses when I’m at home so that I can see the TV. It’s too embarrassing to go out like that and since I don’t have the money to get a new pair, I just don’t go out like that.

I’m behind on my rent so badly and all I can do for my landlord right now is clean the heck out of his house, do my best to manicure his lawn and then leave before I end up owing him more than I already do. I’m so ashamed that I let him down because he’s been terribly good to me over the years. But as I try to come up with the most responsible, decent and correct thing to do, I’m left with the reality of having to tell him that, despite all of the faith he has had in me over the years…I can’t handle it anymore and promise to repay every favor he has ever done me.

Everybody who knows my situation has asked me why I don’t try to get some sort of government help. I’ve gotten myself out of messes before and I am still praying that I can dig myself out of this hole. Like a person working out who begins to see new muscles, a sense of pride can also be quite addictive. 

I’m not perfect but if I had accepted assistance from one person, one agency or one church…I wouldn’t be in the dire straights in which I currently find myself. But any help that I took would have to be repaid and I’m already in a financial deficit.

So do yourself a favor, before you make assumptions about me, or any other fellow human, remember than there are things that you don’t know and look inside to see if you could find the strength and maturity to take the high road. It’s really worth the climb.

Well, obviously I’m not dead…but I don’t really feel well at all.

Have a great day and God Bless!

My fridge is like a bachelor's, nothing but condiments with no food to put them on.

My fridge is like a bachelor's, nothing but condiments with no food to put them on.


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